Post secrets written by facebook users Bold if you can relate [freshh_surveyss] I know you're not ready but I don't know how to handle not being with you.
When you said "I just don't feel right" it really hurt. I'm not being bitchy by ignoring you, I just don't want to get hurt again. I don't like you anymore. You've turned into a bitch. And it's such a pity because I considered you one of my best friends. I'm no longer afriad to walk away, you can keep your drugs, i'll keep my strength. I tried to kill myself before, I can't beleive that all those pills did nothing. It's been seven months and im still in love with him. i can't start new relatoinships, there is that chance that i could get you back. im sorry, it was my fault... i will change for you, i swear I hate that i cant count on my parents It would be easier if you just liked me for my body instead of liking who I really am. I am scared to fall in love. Because of you i removed "promise" from my vocabulary. I had it all with him, but i pushed him away .. and i don't think i have a clue what it is i want from love anymore,.. but i know i feel like horribly lonely I lost my childhood because of you, and you never said sorry or even implied that you were and now your trying to ruin your own kids lifes I never really moved on, like you thought i did. i still think of you everynight. It took me awhile but I finally figured out you're not the one for me. Even though i've never actually done it, i completely understand why people cut and mutilate themselves. right now I'd do almost anything to not feel what i'm feeling We haven't talked for months because of "her" and I wish I had you in my life again . I really miss you , more then you'll ever know I know you lied to me. And I know you're still lying. And I don't forgive you Ive got the man i always wanted. all to myself. I would give my body to any one, as long as it made me feel like some one. If my parents had just once told me that it was okay to be messed up, i wouldnt be afraid to ask for help I'm 17 and I feel like I've already messed up too much to ever be forgiven When I stop and try to figure out when all of this went wrong, the only conclusion I get is the day I was born. I'm bisexual but i don't tell anyone cause i scared that i'll lose everyone. He is my boyfriend's best friend, and i love him way more then my boyfriend I went back to a past love, thinking he had changed but he is still the same person. Some people just change for the worse. I'm depressed and I have no one to tell. I'm terrified of life being over. that's why i'm so happy all the time. I stole over 100 dollars from my parents to buy food to fill me face. I love him and it kills me that he knows and doesnt care I am not the person i want to be. if anyone found out about that night, i dont know what i would do. You are the only real friend i have and im scared of graduating because im not sure i can make another friend like you I'm so lucky and so fortunate for the life I have, and I should be happy, but I don't think I am. Everytime I see my mother, I think about everything I've done wrong and everything she's pointed out that I've done wrong. I think im losing my best friend. I cry a lot because I know I will never be good enough here. I am too different. All I want is a home where I belong. I'm scared I'll never find one. I know you're dead, but you're still my best friend The only thing stopping me from doing drugs is disappointing my brother. Sometimes I ask people questions I already know the answers to. I feel that I'm on the brink of something big, I'm just waiting for it to start. I sometimes wish that bad things happened to me so that my family and friends would pay me more attention. The only time my mom ever tells me i look nice is when i wear goth makeup and straighten my hair I hate myself everyday for what I did to him. Even though he was just as cruel to me in the end, I can't seem to be angry at him. I'm worried I'm not intelligent enough to finish college I really like you. everytime i see you i get butterflies. i dont know why i have to be your runing joke. we used to talk all the time and now you wont look at me. i hate your friends for making you do this. cause i know you had someting for me and i'm mad at you for letting your friends take that away I used to be a cutter I think he might be "the one" but I'm terrified he'll meet someone better than me when he goes to college Im afraid of being alone. i cant even be alone in my own house without feeling incredibly lonely and depressed I made out with one of your friends and it was amazing. I hate having to rely on medications to be happy. I should be able to do that on my own. After taking bio, I'm scared to have children in the off-chance that they'll come out with some kind of disability, and I'm afraid that I'll resent them or won't love them as much I secretly hope I get fired every day I go into work, just so I can say I didn't quit. I am keeping the baby and going to love it and never let him see it. I broke up with a guy i really cared about because my friends thought i could do better then him Even surrounded by my best friends, I usually always feel alone. I feel like they don't want me around. I have nothing in common with my dad. He loves me to death and loves hanging out with me, but he doesn't know me at all. I think better of people who accept gays, automatically. I took a huge chance and it was nothing like how I thought it would go. Now what? I hate who I've become. I'm not myself anymore and I think you did this to me Every career I plan on pursuing is unstable. People are scared for me. I pretend to be confident and determined, but really, I'm even more scared they are. I just avoid thinking about it. I'm more attracted to men who aren't single. I'm preparing myself to be romantically alone for the rest of my life. Because of my past, because I'm cynical, and because it's safer. I would be perfectly fine if we never spoke again. I'm most likely better off anyways I have told way too many lies in the past that i can't take any of them back and they just keep balling up with even more lies When i see a girl that is better looking than me, i want to punch them. My worst fear is that my friends and family will realize what a weak, worthless person I am and leave me all alone. I know you don't love me and you never will, all you ever wanted was sex. and you got it I am afraid to be in a relationship with anyone else because i don't think I could love anyone more than i love him. Your pot obsession is pathetic. You truly were awful in bed. I didn't want to make you feel bad. I hate him for what he did to me, he really ruined me for the rest of my life. I have too many regrets, and I hate myself. Everyone I've ever loved hasn't loved me back. Everyone who's ever loved me I haven't loved My parents are disappointed in me for being single I never fell out of love with you |